Recently I was contacted by an old acquaintance. We live on opposite ends of the country, so we don't see each other at all. In fact, we really don't have any contact with one another except maybe once or twice a year via phone or text. On this occasion, she caught me at a bad … Continue reading Grief Has No Timeline
When my son suddenly passed away last year, I felt angry for months. I was angry at my husband, at my friends, at the bank clerk. I was angry at everything and everyone. I was angry at people for no particular reason. I was angry ‘just because’. All that time, I kept telling G-d that … Continue reading Is it OK to Be Angry At G-d?
Some Day, One Day (Inspired by the lyrics from the song One Day by Matisyahu) Sometimes in my tears I drownBut I pray it doesn’t get me downSo when negativity surroundsI know some day it'll all turn around because All my life I've been waiting forI've been praying forMashiach to come and stayThere’ll be no … Continue reading Poetry of Grief
Preparing for the Unexpected I’m a firm believer in the Boy Scout motto ‘Be Prepared’. I sometimes think about various scenarios and wonder how I would respond. Now, I don’t often meet new people. And now, with the Covid situation, I’m not meeting anyone at all. But if I did meet someone for the first … Continue reading Answering A Painful Question
Why Can't I Emotionally Cope With the Loss of My Son? My intellectual brain and my emotional heart are worlds apart. Understanding something and emotionally internalizing it are two separate realms that, in me, are totally disconnected from one another. Intellectually I know that my dear son, Jacob, is living a life in the spiritual … Continue reading The Disconnect Between My Head and My Heart