The Disconnect Between My Head and My Heart

Disconnect between head and heart

Why Can't I Emotionally Cope With the Loss of My Son? My intellectual brain and my emotional heart are worlds apart. Understanding something and emotionally internalizing it are two separate realms that, in me, are totally disconnected from one another.  Intellectually I know that my dear son, Jacob, is living a life in the spiritual … Continue reading The Disconnect Between My Head and My Heart

Dealing with Guilt and Hashgacha Pratit

Divine providence or random

I Felt Guilty When My Son Suddenly Passed Away When my adult son passed away, the nagging feelings of guilt set in and made me more miserable than I already was. I thought to myself, ‘Was there something I could have done to prevent what happened?’.  Jacob, being a stoic young man, never complained about … Continue reading Dealing with Guilt and Hashgacha Pratit

A Chassidic Teaching From the Alter Rebbe Comforted Me

The alter rebbe’s teachings from tanya

What's Wrong With What I Want? Before my son passed away, I would always pray that he would get married and have a family. I prayed that his life would be filled with Torah and mitzvos and that he would pass on the mesorah to his children. His sudden passing left me horribly confused. Why … Continue reading A Chassidic Teaching From the Alter Rebbe Comforted Me